HALLUCINATIONS

upon my haunting hour
ive visited your room
smelled your clothes
the scent of omnipotence
dragged me down

kneeling...
i saved my last
im still here
always the same
waiting...for what

i cant break the silence
i followed your part
chains of departure
where are you GOD?
...his absence echoed

DENIAL of our farewell
ENTRAPMENT inside your memories
ACCEPTANCE of failure
TAINTED with my own lies'

Now,youve given me halters
to hang our past behind
youll never hear my voice
youll never see me again

im just chasing demons
wearing my own skin
note to self
"avenge me"

letters that was sent yesterday
the storm,tore them away
and in the sea of despair
theyll rot,like thoughts ,under repair

and there he sailed away
while im sleeping
going to where the dusk was born
he'll stay and live forever

and here ill watch as the sun dies
when the moon will fall
seeing people smile as i passed by
what an ugly way to cry

its so disturbing
time ran like a blink of an eye
but i was moving slowly
no one could touch me

am i alive?
or just walking?
the sky was perfect
its lovely without you
but its not perfect

lets wait for them to leave
i still want to see your eyes
lets wait for them to empty their seats
i still want to hold your hand

along the streets of nightmare
they've followed us
consume my strength my love
you need to run

i was left behind
ive slipped away
the worms are eating the grass
goodbye to you my love

ill never keep my hopes too high
they will fall tonight
the final part of my struggle
the final act


a story without an ending
a song with no meaning
a poem with nothing to say but Death on my lovers skin



wave your photographs, goodbye
ill burn them inside..