ENVY

things I wish You could hear

whispers through wrath and fear

judging by its colour

feelings of anxiety and horror

cradle of malice and hate

covered with hope and faith

your sky, so blue,

reminds my thoughts of you

allow me to interfere

in your nuptial of guilt

before a new born cloud will haunt

my new found dreams

i wish you will embrace him tighter than me

i hope that you’ll cry with him as loud as we did

i hope you’ll hold his hand ,as gentle as i did

i hope you’ll kiss his lips,.....with your best ,as i did

i hope you’ll never lie to him,

i hope you’ll be there for him

i wish you’ll brush his hair

i hope you’ll look into his eyes while saying how much you love him

i hope you’ll make him smile

i hope you’ll do everything that i wish i have done for him

i was betrayed by time

i was cheated by fate

and in the wedding of white and grey

ill be sitting in a midnight bay

and stare at a blue cold moon

i whispered ''i wish you were here"

never make him wait

never make him cry

never stare at someone when you’re with him

never rely on things..rely on him to breathe

never call him when you’re not sober

never love someone more than him

never make him your everything

make him "everyone" for you

while I’m sleeping in this bed of yearning

he'll ask for your kiss

in the same night of the same date

one will sleep with memories

one will sleep with the other one's happiness

you’re a woman who i desired to be

you have everything I’ve been longing to have

three more years and you’ll be bound in a white canopy

ill drive by giving you a drink, joyously

you both live in your own reality

ill be working in my fantasy

there, he’ll be so lovely

undying presence with me

and as you entered the rain of flowers

ill meet you in our equinox

I should've run a thousand times

but I was waiting for someone

someone you already have

someone you already kissed

someone you already hugged

someone you already fell in love with.