WHERE AM I?

Where am I ,

inside a box,four corners,four years,four faces

I felt sadness and rejection,is there someone for something.Tears started to fill the empty space.Am I drowning,again.I felt agony,spreading inside  my chest,like ink dropped inside an ocean.silence,buried me like the red sands of time.

A spectre,started to approach me,it was pointing at something.Is it the way out ,or the way to eternal peace,and peace,what is peace?

Where am I

trapped inside a heart shaped box,his name written on every corner,who are you,have we met before,I have a feeling that you are my long lost lover.

You have a lover and a tormentor

you smiled as if the world is falling down on you and yet..yet you shed that grin from the afterlife

what are you ?

And oh the pain of seeing you fall everyday,the pain of seeing you embrace and kneel again.

Why are you so naive?

But then i walked ,alone,in this mindless road ,with my atrophy.for rejection melted my neck,I would never see the flames from the sun again.

I opened my  thoughts ,I am  inside a familiar place,for I was here every single day.and the smell ,the stench feels the same.Rats and all the hypocrites.

"the music so loud

reality,deafening inside me

the crowd is moving,slower than anything

and someone touched me

I dont care,This is an illusion

life is an illusion

I am alone.

Make -up covered scars

lipstick covered bruises

smile covered fear

love covered demon

and Im out of sugar

its okay,you would never feel a thing

I would never ,ever

save you again."

And when you sleep,

l would stitch your eyes again."